THE 'ANNOUNCEMENT' POST
my blog will be on HIATUS as of today
i have nothing to really blog about therefore choosing and coming to this decision
i will update it when im in da mood again
the follwing post will be the last post til i dont know when
i went for chalet with my closeset frens
whom which i love . alot . and WUD NEVER . NEVER WANA SEE DEM DOWN
do u think i am a sadist ? i want to pull ppl's mood .
of course not . people who really really know me .
can surely tell u . derek is always freaking smiling .
i keep all my bad stuff in my heart .
but everyone is human . we have a limit .
once we hit dat point . we crumble . we fall . we breakdown . we fail
or maybe . we just not good enuf to deal with stuff
for example . to weak to hold emotions.
get sad easily . get angry easily
so i kinda reflected upon myself .
who brought this on me ? myself
im nt good enuf i guess
simple . i am that sucky .
i always tot i was quite a nice guy
hopefully . i can change become better
appearance wise i look crap .
attitude maybe crap as well
so i hope this two can be changed.
and i need to stop treating people to nice
iv been told off so many tymes . both in msia and the uk
i treat people TOO NICE .
things in lyfe. change . so quickly.
im nt gona say anything at all here. but look at the post below this .
unbeliveable .
and the worst of the lot .
your helpless. u sit there and stare while everything u wrked for . crumbles and fall
its like a building u built so hard with sticks .
and just one small tiny stupid minute wind blows .
it falls . it dint even have a chance to hold it .
why ?
go think .
im VERY METHAPHORICAL !
this might sound so emo .
but i rest assure u . i am not emo .
i now feel shitty and just wana sleeep . and drink LOL
ok . i just sleep for more den 12 hrs . but stil my eyes hurt , stomach hurts , head hurts .so LOL . im going to bed.
on a lighter note .
this two songs helped me .
one to remind me . i am crapped.
one is to hold on .
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XMiy_UsrPDs - Fight for this love
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2WoJV4NLxqg - Vindicated
abit of the lyrics
" Quits out of the question . When it gets harder gotta fight somore. "
" We gotta fight fight fight fight , fight for this love "
" Vindicated im selfish . i am wrong . "
" I am flawed. but i am cleaning up so well . "
all this happened ... too quicky.
one day awesome . next day hell
and all this .. while i just got back from uk
lyfe is SHIT
thats all
thank you all
sorry. cheers
